Life As I know it

Ok, So maybe it's been a long fricking time since I've been here. Almost 10 years it would seem. So, I have to wonder why I always feel the need to come back? I think it's because I get tired of airing my dirty laundry to my sister, and friends. And because I sometimes when I need to vent, it isn't because I need advice, it's just cuz I need to VENT. And hearing advice that you KNOW your NOT going to take is a lot like ordering food and tossing it the minute you pay for it. I know that about myself and it really sucks that I don't change it, when its a weakness. Obviously I've not turned over a new lease or look on life if I did the same damn thing 10 years ago, but whatever, it is my life and you all get to hear about it. I'm pretty sure 10 years ago I was an unhappily married woman, had 2 step children, and 1 of my own, and was living as a stay at home mom. who was allowed to have a part time job, as long as i was still able to make sure the ass and kiddies were fed, clothed and cleaned properly. But if it hindered their lives in any way i was not allowed to do have a job. Well, obviously that lasted as long as i could take it, and soon decided a seperation was in order. I wanted my own money,, life, and shit, something that didn't revolve around an over bearing asshole and the house. Now today, I am a happily Married woman (to said same overbearing asshole) with all the same issues, just NOW i have my own money, am a manager of a salon, and have 1 child still under our roof and eating all our food, and taking all my hard earned money on sports, gasoline, and anything else she can think of. LOL, but it's actually good. I love my life right now, and although I'm probably making said asshole unhappy because I am no longer at his beck and call 24/7 I'm happier with myself. And I will not ever go back to what we had then. I love him, and my life, but sometimes it can't be all about the other person. Sometimes it has to be about our needs. And maybe that makes me selfish, but I deserve to be at times. This is going to be a self exploratory Blog. Hopefully I'll learn a few things, and learn how to change the things i need to become a better person, manager, mother wife and friend.